it[dont]matter[2me].bread?

[+]Well, let's see, where do i start? [+]First off and happening right now: boy "problems". If i could just... you know, lend him my brain. Change his chemistry. If he would just stop going through i what i went through back in 2000. If only he left all that behind...i'd say yes to everything he said. But i can't stop living faster than some people.
And i can't shake this feeling that he will not leave me alone and i won't either. And if i hear one more beep from him i'm going to explode, call him up, tell him off for an hour then he'll ask me to marry him again and i'll hang up on him [+]THEN we have that other one, god, where to start?
And how can i make him happy without him and me having to be involved?
[+]I'm having one of those rare days, like once a year or 2 i just have to wake up just to see the sunrise. It's not like it'll give me some answers. The Sun is just going to be there, same as me and my worries
-because i can't quite call these problems, at least i don't really feel them as mine-
and my sketches.
And why do i keep telling him that i'll show him my artwork and yet i can't?
[+]Changing the subject. The YYY's were here some time ago, even a friend was selling tickets for almost half price because she wasn't able to make it but, nahh, it's a great band but i didn't feel like going there. I think i only like their first cd XD [+]But i just came back from a trip. Yu-huh. Mexico DF and Chiapas. The original plan was to spend my monies in a Eurotrip but you know, the recession, the flu, and all that racism going on right now against Mexicans, iiii really can't go there until i learn how to curse in other languages than English and Spanish. My trip was great. Drank coffee everyday and never got a migraine, so i'm thinking that the stupid coffee from Texas is well, actually, STUPID. Full of chemicals and god knows what. I went to visit so many cultural, natural and archeological places. Opera, Tamara Lempicka and meeting Vampipe were the cherry on top :)
And such marvelous food!!
[+]This is truly one of my best Summers, right next to that timne i went to Mazatlan and the Louisiana one. And its still not over yet.
[+]i think i'll just write another post and i should be done with this blog moreless.

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That'sWhat.i.get

[+]One of many sketches i have rolling about, wrinkled up in balls, looked to me like a girl. Well, it turned out she was a man, he took his guitar and started to sing NIN's "That's what i get". His fingers slammed on the wrong chords, lots of short circuits. I thought he was barely learning to play it. No, he said i made him nervous.
Of course that can not be.
A stealthy look i sneaked at his hand. Just when he wasn't looking, the suspended hand was left hanging for a few brief seconds and dear...my dear...it was shaking as if he was left out in a cold, winter night in front of a Baptist Church.
"Sin", Placebo's "Meds" and Smashing Pumpkin's "Disarm" followed through. To my heart's pleasure.
Again:
"Sin", Placebo's "Meds" and Smashing Pumpkin's "Disarm" followed through my heart's pleasure.
My new painting, it looks good, right? i'm ready to bring on the big guns. Those sketches? i'm using them now.
With a little help from my friends.
I'm going to need more energy and discipline to accomplish this. From all the classmates that have graduated before and after me, Only Kaletia has been the one that keeps doing art. Perhaps the others are already getting lost, and here i am, barely trying to get started.
[+]I have been to this bedroom several times, and as its owner changes apartments, it amazes me how he turns it into a great place i'd like to live in every time. I'd very much like that...
And i shall have.
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NoSuckaLeftBehind

[+]Do not fall asleep at parties. Especially if you're hanging out with the wrong people. Not even when you're visiting.
Hmmmm.
Just don't fall asleep AT ALL.
[+]Which reminded me of -and i can't say how i connected this- i don't know, 2 years ago [awesome, i'm always writing about things that happened 2 years ago as if i wasn't able to remember last year or 6 years ago]. Whatevs, I'm at the college's bar, one of my classmates invites me to a party, i decline because i didn't feel like telling my parents the when, where and who about the party. 2 friends asked me if i knew of any parties. I gave them the info for the one i had said no to, told them that it was from the art crowd, i didn't know who was going to go, so it wasn't likely that they'd know anyone there, i dunno, if they wanted to go, there it was, take it or leave it. The 2 men went, and not 2 hrs passed... before i got 2 txt messages, 1 from each, 1 from "G" saying that they didn't last long because "U" was upset, and the 2nd one, from "U", sarcastically telling me how cool it was that i knew so many junkies and drug addicts.
Okayyy??
I didn't think much of it. I reassured him that they were classmates. Besides, i didn't know who was there smoking pot and who wasn't, and although i am friends with junkies and dealers, i wasn't going to pass judgement on "U" for being upset.
What is just hilarious right about now, is that "U" is at present, a pot fiend [at least]. There's no rumors about it, i have myself seem him smoke it. Last year.
Whatever, take it for what it's worth. Zip, nada.
And i'll remember not to trust on this new dangerous, crack fiend, judgemental, 2-faced, friend.
[+]Summer's pretty much here already. i'm not really dreading it so much as last year. I mean, i still am looking for an Art Teaching position, but because last year i applied everywhere here in El Paso, this year i already spent it applying all over Dallas, and other districts inside Texas, the State of Oregon, Louisiana, Virginia and even signed up to teach English at Korea [the problem is they needed American citizens :P]...but the Korean scout gave me his bracelet when i complimented his double watch that featured Dallas and Korea time. It looked so Steam Punk ;_;
*AHEM!!!*
...i've been certified since last year, and have more experience now [what in Mexico is called "titulacion"], i'm feeling more confident on landing something.
Hmm, enough about looking for a better job, let's go to the next post!
And don't fall asleep at all.
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